A (De)Motivating Day
Today was probably one of the more stressful days I’ve had at work in a long time. Stressful in the way that makes you realize that you’ve not been handling things the right way for a while and things are now a bit out of control as a result. A conversation with my boss and a co-worker that was a little uncomfortable, but needed. I had to mea culpa a lot and own up to some mistakes I had made recently. It was a bit demotivating at first.
This evening, I was moping around unhappy because I thought about my relationship with my wife and was focusing on what I didn’t have that I wanted. This, of course, made me more unhappy. I had an overwhelming sense of futility about the whole thing. I didn’t want to talk to her about it this evening because I don’t always have good conversations about relationships under duress.
On the other hand, some good things happened today. I made some major headway on my backlogged work. I am also about to clear a major roadblock that will allow me to work with a project my boss has been wanting me to work with for months now. The circumstances for why I could not be inolved were very much beyond my control, but those issues are coming to a close by tomorrow, if all goes well. I also had Rasberry Creme Brulee for desert, and it was to die for.
So which was it, a good day, or a bad day? I guess it depends on what you choose to focus on.